guilty

Last night, I kept Dev company while he did his english homework, because I (for the first time in forever) didn't have any homework of my own to do. He had to write this thing on guilty pleasures... so I started thinking of my guilty pleasures... I have a sort of long and semi-embarrassing list! But I think it's entertaining...

• setting my alarm for earlier then when I have to wake up, so I feel like I get to sleep in
• wearing jeans straight out of the dryer in the winter
• oreos in peanut butter
• taking notes in classes
• writing on whiteboards
• making lists (ironic... haha)
• paying in exact change
• cleaning. especially mopping with a swiffer
• pebble ice
• when the cashier at fabulous freddy's says "Have a fabulous day!"
• popping my knuckles
• sneezing
• packing for trips
• giving people gifts

Then, I read the research paper Devin had been working on forever, and it reminded me how much I hate works cited pages. You know what else I hate?

• paper cuts
• the paper on crayons
• nails on a chalkboard/forks on plates
• waking up late
• bad handwriting days (yes, I have a love/hate relationship with my handwriting)
• dry skin, especially my hands
• commercials
• worrying/being paranoid
• forgetting homework
• losting stuff
• my alarm clock
• the number 22
• sticky floors
• parking lots
• the smell of the hospitals
• watery eyes

Ok... anyway. I found this quote... and I don't think anything has ever been more true about my life, and how I feel:


I believe everything happens for a reason. People change so you can learn how to let go. Things go wrong, so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself and the Lord, and good things fall apart so better things can fall together.


It's comforting to understand that everything happens for a reason, and what's meant to be will always find a way. It's also comforting to know that I don't have to worry anymore. There is no more jealousy or second-guessing. There isn't anymore stressing over things that shouldn't be stressing me out!


It's also comforting to know that Devin is here :)

ish

2-ish weeks left of:

school

>walking to my car in the snow
>freezing my fingers and toes off while walking to my car in the snow
>Professor Bartholomew's weird habits and fashion choices
>uncontrollable pre-Christmas giddiness
>rolling my eyes at the hipsters clogging the hallways of UVU
>the never-ending math homework Devin and I are NEVER caught up on
>sitting in the PE hallway between classes, Jamba Juice in one hand hand, flatbread/pretzel in the other, with Kylee making judgemental observations about people we don't know...
>walking up countless stairs to the CS building
>worrying about 3 finals
>worrying about 1 final paper
>dreading 1 "final workout"


I'm so excited to finally be done with this semester... and school all together! I'm just nervous that my life will be very boring and I will be out of the loop! Not much of my social life has anything to do with school though, so I guess I will be okay.


I'm even MORE excited to start the dental assisting program at MATC! It will be so much fun, and I'm pretty sure I've got a couple friends coming with me!


In other news... life has been wonderful. I love my family and my friends, and I have been having so much fun lately! Even when Ryan makes us all watch a 1963 psychological thriller... which actually turned out to be pretty good. I love Audrey Hepburn. She's pretty sassy in Charade-- that's the movie we watched.


Yesterday was Kevin's farewell -- His talk was on testimonies and how to strengthen and build your own. It was such a great talk, and a good reminder! Kylee and I sat on the front row next to KC Ashby, who is one of my oldest friends, and surprisingly enough, Devin's cousin. KC farewell was the week before, but he doesn't leave for another little while. His talk was on pondering, and also great!

Anyway, after the Luncheon at Kevin's house, which was way fun, and I got to see Mitch! Who is one of my best friends, Dev came and got me and I went to his ward with him.


Aside from the obnoxious bench of girls in front of us, a very confusing musical number time slot, and some awkward speakers... It was great! The first speaker did so, so good. I loved her talk, and the musical number, once it finally happened, was actually really great. I liked Devin's ward! And I love being able to go to church with him, whether it's his ward, my ward, or a farewell... it's so much fun to do things like that with him. His dad, Gaylon, who is great,  does a lot of family history, and hopefully Devin and I will take the names to the temple and he can baptize me soon.

advice

1. Take one day at a time.
2. Have backups.
3. K.M.S. (keep mouth shut)
4. Do something for the kid in you each day.
5. Eat right.
6. Simplify and unclutter your life.
7. Get organized so everything has its place.
8. Every day, find time to be alone.
9. Make friends with good people.
10. Laugh.
11. Take work seriously, but not yourself at all.
12. Be kind to unkind people. (They probably need it)
13. Slow down.
14. Remind yourself that you aren't the general manager of life.
15. Every night before bed, think of one thing you are grateful for that you have never been grateful for before.
16. Say, "I love you".
17. Pray.

I have this by my bed. And I thought it was worth sharing, because it's some pretty good advice! Definitely some that I should take more often...

gratitude

in case you were wondering, or in case you noticed... i stopped playing the blogging game. days 26-30 are either super boring and not worth my time, or way too time-consuming. so i am officially done with the game.

HOWEVER

it is Thanksgiving time and all... so here are some things that I have been feeling very grateful for lately (even though i've been posting a lot lately about my thankful-ness and all my blessings!):

• the seat heaters in Devin's car. The temperature outside right now is approximately 14 degrees... EWW. those heat seaters are magic! ;)
• my newly acquired skill of patience. which has definitely been helpful.
• honesty. because there are a LOT of dishonest people who keep wasting my time.
• math. even though i hate it, and it frustrates me, there must be SOME reason that I have to put up with it, and for that, I am thankful.
• my kitten. who never fails to entertain me with his antics.
• bobbypins. especially cute ones made by Amanda Wagstaff.
• Devin. in general, but also for his efforts to keep my toes above freezing temperatures, in particular.
• the cocoa-motion. for supplying me with endless hot chocolate, mixed to perfection.
• Vicki and Gaylon, Devin's amazing parents -- who have been so sweet to me! I absolutely love you both!
• MARS (hahaha just kidding. Makayla is thankful for Mars, though)
• Kylee. who keeps me in line, and is my best friend.
• snow. for making christmastime prettier. (and that reason only)
• Fat Cats. for providing me and my friends with endless entertainment each Tuesday night. and Sammy's, for supplying us with delicious pie shakes and grilled cheese sandwiches.
• Pandora radio
• My Daddy. for working so hard, and doing nice things for me, like detailing my car, when i don't even ask :) and also for entertaining me daily with his craziness... like today for example. the doctor told him after 2 weeks, he could take the cast off his foot. 2 weeks happened to fall on thanksgiving... so what happened? he literally sawed his own cast off. leave it to my daddy...
• computers. for allowing my journaling to be a much less daunting task.
• my job. and the amazing people involved with it!
• Brandon Ashby and Amanda Wagstaff's AMAZING cooking skills -- a Thanksgiving dinner made from scratch! SOOO delicious. Best meal I've ever had.
• The Presto. And maple smoked bacon. and pancakes. 2-3 days a week.
• Brandon's crazy dogs, that always keep us entertained.. especially when we turn Riley into a hoodlum.
• rock band. and Devin singing for rock band.
• the END of my first black friday shift.
• my grandma houston, and her ability to come up with hilarious thanksgiving games.
• my aunt amanda and uncle tim, for being themselves. their HILARIOUS selves.
• my Savior :)

ok. i think that's enough. i could go on, and on, and on for hours about the things i am grateful for, but i will spare you.

today was an incredible day :) i slept in, and helped my mom peel and cut endless potatoes, and bake 6 pies for thanksgiving.

I helped my crazy father saw his own cast off. (I only wish this was surprising to me...)

I had a wonderful thanksgiving dinner with almost all of my mom's side of the family at my grandma's house... I have such a crazy extended family! they make me laugh -- constantly!

I had an amazing second thanksgiving dinner at Devin's sister, Amanda's house -- her and Brandon (Devin's older brother) made such a delicious meal! It was so well put-together and I was so impressed! Tried yams for the first time -- not bad! AND the stuffing was the best.

I met Jason (amanda's husband)'s parents, and devin's grandparents were there, too :) Along with all of his siblings, their spouses, and his adorable nieces and nephew.

We played rock band-- which is ALWAYS sure to entertain us.

Chlean/Schloe (hahaha), Brandon, Devin and I went and saw 127 hours -- it was way good! Seemed very accurate -- and it didn't make Aron Ralston look like a hero, which is what we were afraid of -- all in all, worth seeing.. once. Maybe twice. Awesome cinematography though.

Then I worked from 10:45-2:30am-- Black Friday Opening at Southtown with some pretty bratty associates who work there. Luckily I had Tim, Rhi, Taylor and Brooke there. We made like 18,000 in 2 hours. duuuuude.

And now i'm here. The amount of caffeine in my system right now is denying me any rights of sleeping -- hence the blog post!

So there is my day. And my list of things I am currently grateful for.

This Post is Dedicated to Kylee Marie Hillman

Kylee is a big fat jerk.

She's my best friend, though. And she likes to give me a hard time for things.

Today, we were watching Hellcats and eating Ernies and she starting razzing me about my blog and how all I ever write about is Devin.

I let her have it. It was probably the funniest thing she had ever seen. I told her that it has never been all about Devin, and if it has, it was for good reason and if she was dating such an amazing guy, she'd do the exact same thing! She said, in between laughing, that it was hilarious because my voice was getting exponentially faster and louder as I went on... and I went on for awhile!

It was the most hilarious fake-fight we have ever had. Regardless of the fakeness of that fight... I really am doing this for you, Ky.

L. $.

So... around the beginning of October, my good friend Tracey Lynn Peavler became Tracey Lynn Peavler CLEGG. Yup, she got married, folks. And from the proposal, all the way up until the actual wedding day... her life was consumed with wedding plans.

Those wedding plans included her pictures. Engagements. Bridals. Whatsoevs.

So when picture conversation came up, Kylee and Tracey would always talk about Tracey's good family friend who was doing her pictures for her. This family friend guy was the greatest guy ever, and they spoke so highly of him. Kylee said he was really cute and that she had dibs on him. I had no idea who they were talking about, so I didn't really care.

Once Tracey got her engagments, and then her bridals, we were constantly gushing over how amazing her pictures were. We may even be guilty of obsession. At least I was.

So finally, the wedding day came... and I went to the reception. I sat next to Kylee at a table, and Derek had come as my date, though we weren't together anymore. During the reception, Kylee leans over and goes "Katie! That's the photographer, Devin, isn't he cute?!" Derek kind of shot me a side-glance, so I shot Kylee a side-glance and didn't really say anything.

But he was cute... BOY was he CUTE.

A few minutes after that, Kylee, Shelly and I were taking a picture, and Devin, the cute photographer came over and said he wanted one with his camera:

I love this picture! And no, not just because Devin took it -- but it is way better then the one taken with my little canon point-and-shoot, haha.

Anyway... Devin always says to me that when he saw me at the reception, he thought to himself "I have got to know that girl."

Which is the cutest thing ever. A little while after, Devin and Kylee had become friends on facebook, and one night, Devin just couldn't possibly get me off his mind (yeah that's probably a total lie haha) and he noticed Kylee was on, so he thought that he would ask about me. And he did. And Kylee, very enthusiastically (apparently) encouraged Devin to talk to me, and gave him my number.

And then Devin and I started talking. The first time Devin and I did anything together was when we met at the UVU library and did our math homework. Romantic, huh? Among several other ironic coinsidences, Devin and I happened to be in the same math course at UVU, and both equally terrible at math. After we lost our mathematical attention-span, he took me to Sammy's Cafe and we had grilled cheese and I met his friends Danica, Ryan, Dane and Jordan.

We have seen each other every single day since. It's been about a month now, and it has been the best month I have had in a very, very long time! Countless grilled cheese sandwhiches at Sammy's, concerts, movies, college ball games, parties... but mostly math homework... It  has been an amazing month :)

(this is the part that I am writing with the intent to roll Kylee's eyes...)

Devin is the best. He is so sweet and so nice to me all the time I am so happy. Devin is soooo attractive. He drives such a cool car. Devin has the best family. No, sorry, I can't come visit you at work, I'm going to be with Devin. He is so the best. I have never been so happy. Devin has the coolest friends. They are so great. Devin Devin Devin. I am so happy! Devin is such a gentleman.  Did I tell you what he said to me last night?! It was the cutest thing ever. Kylee, did I tell you that Devin is the best? :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)  Devin Devin Devin Devin Devin Devin Devin...

I hate you, Kylee. You're my best friend. I hope you read this every single night. On top of hearing it all from me every single day. Because it's all true and you know it and you're happy for me anyway! And you can't even give me crap for it, because you do it too!

In other news... That HUGE BLIZZARD that was supposed to be LIFE THREATENING... you know, the blizzard warnings that had people telling Devin and I as we walked into Macey's for some groceries, "Don't shop if you don't have to!"... that blizzard that had Macey's PACKED with panicking patrons... that blizzard that was supposed to hit like 5 HOURS AGO and still hasn't hardly coughed.... yeah it's not here... yet? I was hoping for some big, scary snow-in type deal. But no. I'm crossing my fingers it happens tonight while we are all sleeping so Dev doesn't have to work tomorrow haha

And you, stupid blizzard warning... even made Sammy's close early. We wanted pie shakes :(

Also... I bowled like a 140...something today. And I also beat Devin at bowling. I made him a bet that he would have to take me to dinner at Communal if I beat him. I won. The funniest part is that he has been planning on taking me there for awhile anyway... haha it was still fun. And I won! Best feeling ever. This is only huge, because Devin is actually a pretty great bowler. He even has a really legit-looking technique. And he bowls and bets against the big guys... Dane.... haha who bowled a 220 tonight, people. 220. 5 strikes in a row. 5-bagger? maybe that's what it's called... I don't remember. Anyway... I love Tuesday Night Bowling. Even if they play dumb music, and Fat Cats is full of hipsters.... literally.

p.s. My blog got a makeover, in case you didn't notice. I think it will get makeovers more often. I am becoming too indecisive.

wishes are for fools

So today, Devin and I went to Francis.


Where's Francis, Katie?


If you would have asked me like a week ago, I would've had to say


"I don't know"


But now, I am more educated, and can say something more like


"Oh, it's right before Kamas!"


And you'd say (after a significantly long pause accompanied by a confused expression)


"...Where is that?"


And a couple days ago, I would have said


"I don't know"


But now, I can tell you


"It's up the Provo Canyon. Through Heber. In South Summit County."


And then you would probably understand. Hopefully.


But you probably wouldn't even really care. Because it's very apparent that nobody cares about Kamas. Or Francis. Although, Francis is pretty great. It has one neighborhood. It's a nice neighborhood... but it's the only neighborhood. It's a crime-free neighborhood, too. 


So, I guess in a way, Francis is a little bit like Canada (points for the Daniel Tosh comedy bit reference... I know, right?).


And in that neighborhood is where Brandon lives. Brandon doesn't even have a key to his house, because they never need to lock the doors.


Brandon is Devin's older brother. We visited him tonight.


Devin and Brandon are putting new struts and shocks and that kind of stuff on Devin's car tomorrow morning, so Devin is just staying the night there. So I drove separate, and followed Devin up there.


When I drive through the tunnel in Provo Canyon, I HAVE to make a wish. It's mandatory. I'm actually a little bit obsessive about it. And it has to be done in a very specific way. But no, not tonight. Because tonight, I realized that I don't need to rely on superstition and wishes... I don't need to make any wishes at all. Because I have everything I need. And I was following Devin's black Mazda 3 up to Francis to visit his brother. And it was a good night, with great food and even greater company.


Wishes are for fools.


Actually... that's a total lie. I just have no use for wishes right now :)


The bad news is... shortly after that tunnel, by the Sundance turnoff, unbeknownst to me, Devin's poor little Maxine got a rock flipped in her face, and her windshield cracked. Bad. Or as Devin put it... "Windshield just got worked by a rock! Tickin me off!" Sorry, Dev :( At least you make it funny!


So we get to Francis. And Brandon showed us his new house that he is moving into. It's awesome. And then we went to dinner.


AT THE COOLEST PLACE EVER.


Road Island Diner.


In Oakley, UT. OAKLEY. Who tows a diner from the East Coast to Oakley, Utah. Of all places?! Well... these guys do.


It has a really awesome history. You should read about it here. Don't just consider reading it. Don't promise to read it later. Read it now. Because you'll be glad you did. It's a really awesome piece of useless information.


It's a legit 50's diner. Complete with juke boxes. And the inside is stainless steel. Like an actual diner. The only thing that would have made it better is if the waitress had been on roller skates.


After dinner, we watched King of Kong.


It's pathetic, in the funniest way ever. This is a documentary on arcade gamers. Champions. That compare themselves to events like Red Sox vs. Yankee games and abortion (yes, both true. Both of those comparisons were actually made in this documentary...yes.) These guys are really serious about Donkey Kong.


It was interesting, but in the way where you're thinking "oh my gosh, they canNOT be serious right now" kind of way.


SOME people...


Brandon has these two dogs. Riley and Koda. They are so adorable. Riley gets really, REALLY mad at you if you touch her butt. It's HILARIOUS. And Koda ignores me. Almost completely. Every time I call her name, she glances at me sideways... and pretends it never happened. But then I get her attention for real, and she's glad she came when I called her, because I pet her. Riley gives the best high 5's.


They are basically the cutest dogs ever and I'm a little jealous. I really want one...


After that, I went home. I didn't want to have to drive through the deer-infested canyon in the dark by myself AND be tired. So here I am. Safe and sound. Although, I did see a deer on the side of the road. And it scared me pretty DANG bad. But everything is alright. Obviously. Or else I probably wouldn't be wasting my time blogging.


But also on my way home... I never had to stop. Only once at a stop sign. That's from the mouth of the canyon.... all the way up 800 N to State.... all th way down State to 400 S... and all the way down 400 S... without stopping. Except for the stop sign.


But isn't that really cool? That never happens.


Anyway... so it was a really good night. Except I really don't like saying goodnight. And I kinda sorta really miss Devin already :(


(DDG, Dev. DDG hahaha)

"...it will surprise what the Lord has done..."

I have been so blessed lately! Last night I was counting my blessings... and there are so many things that I have to be grateful for.


I have a wonderful family. Even though I don't get along with my siblings as often as I feel like I should, they are some of my best friends, and we have such a great time together. My parents have had my back in so many situations that they shouldn't have had to help me out of, but they did anyway. My family has been my biggest supporters, and have been there for me when I felt like nobody else could be. I am so blessed to be a Johnson!


I have a great education. As much as I dread waking up in the morning for my classes, I can't help but feel grateful for the chance I have to go to school at such a great University, and learn each day. I love the freedom that comes with being a college student. I love choosing what I want to learn, and I am definitely benefiting from the choices I have made to do so. I definitely found out what I want to do with my life the hard way, but I don't regret the lesson I have learned getting there! Some people say I wasted my time at DSC, and even this semester at UVU because nothing I'm doing right now, or last year, has anything to do with my career choice now. Wasted MONEY may be true, but I am so glad that I got to learn everything I did, in and out of school.


I have an awesome job. I LOVE where I work! I love the environment, I love the customers, and I especially love my co-workers. My store manager, Nicola is such a huge motivator and the 3 CSLs do a great job, too. I also love all the other associates that I get to spend my time with! They make my job SO much more fun! Especially when we have 2 hour meetings on Saturday nights! I hope that I can get a promotion, so I can move up in the company and stick around! Cross your fingers.


My friends are the best. It hasn't been easy finding good people that are worth my trust and respect, but I am so glad I found a few! My friends, both old and new, have helped me grow in so many ways! Valeri, Kylee, Amy, Tracey, Shelly, Chelsey, Alli, Mitch O, Mitch M,  --- these are GOOD people! It has been a tough while recently, filtering through my groups of friends and finding the ones that are really here for me, but I am so glad I have some good ones left! And of course, I am so endlessly grateful for Devin. He has made my life 100% easier this past month, and I have no doubt that he will continue to do such a great job of this for many months to come!  Devin has become one of my very best friends, and I couldn't have asked for a better boyfriend. He has been so understanding and patient with me while I continue to sort through my life! He goes out of his way to make sure that I am happy, and he makes a point to see me every single day. I am such a lucky girl! I also love all of the friends that Devin has introduced me to! He has found himself a lot of really genuine people, and I am glad to have them in my life as well! Dane, Shawn, Timmy, Megan, Amy, Josh, Emily, Katie, Ryan, Danica... so many! They are all so great! Not to mention, his amazing family who I love so much! Vicki, Gaylon, Amanda, Jason, Makayla, Kaden, Addison, Brandon, Sean, Chloe... I love you all!!!


I am proud to be an American. I don't feel like I have taken into consideration often enough how blessed I am to live, not only in this country, but in this valley! Yes, happy valley can be a bit of an oxymoron-ic drag, but it has been such a great place to grow up. I love living so close to the Headquarters of the Church, and I love that my entire extended family lives close too! I am so grateful for all of the men and women who defend this country, and will never come close to being able to express how much. "If you don't stand behind our troops, feel free to stand in front of them..."


I have been raised in the Gospel. I love the knowledge that comes with being a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. I love knowing that having faith in the Lord will always lead to blessings. My testimony continues to grow the more I learn and the more I follow what I know is right. Whenever I feel weak or unstable, I know I can always turn to the scriptures to get the strength I need to make it through my problems, and I know that Heavenly Father answers my prayers. I have seen it happen on countless occasions. The gospel has taught me how to live my life right, and for that, I couldn't be more grateful :)

"the last one that you keep..."

I know I keep saying this, but that's only because it's still so, so true. I feel so incredibly lucky every day. My family continues to be my biggest support, and my closest friends. My friends are hilarious and I know they will always be there for me, no matter what. And Devin never ceases to amaze me. Each day, I find myself happier and happier. He is such an incredible person, and he definitely makes me want to be a better version of myself. I have never been so... on the same page... as someone else. He understands everything I try to say, and he makes me feel so good about myself. My confidence has gone up, my self-esteem, my attitude, my motivation to get through the day...


I just don't even know... I like him :)


So... let's add to that list of weird things Katie sees on UVU campus:


1. a GUY with painted nails, nonetheless... walking to the UCCU center... one hand on his hip, walking like some girl would when she's making fun of supermodels. only he was being serious
2. 4 people sleeping in the hall by the UCCU center. 
3. the asian women that work in the LA cafe SCREAMING at each other in chinese, while I was buying my mountain dew.


ooooh I just love school. At least I'm entertained.


The blog game today is my week in great detail.... I don't really remember a week back.... I have done something with Devin every single day though... haha


We went to dinner at Olive Garden with Timmy and Megan, who are expecting! That's really exciting. That was on... Saturday. Before that, I went shopping with Kayla. I bought some BKE jeans. Oh, and I jumped on the TOMS train. Ash canvas toms. Love them. Also on Saturday, I followed in Devin's footsteps and basically became a Certifed Water Specialist. I learned about swutting and flux and stuff like that. I helped Dev put a water pressure regulator on his parents house -- it was really fun!


Yesterday (Sunday) Devin came to my singles ward with me. Sacrament meeting was awesome. It was a "missionary" sacrament meeting so we were supposed to bring a less-active friend. I didn't know this until AFTER Devin said he would come with me... haha and then we tried to go to the dating and courtship class, but it actually didn't really exist, so Jordan taught us a great made-up lesson on dating and courtship, but actually Rhett really taught it... Then we had some breakfast at 2:00 in the afternoon... haha and made some cookies. And took the best nap of my life. And then went to Sunday dinner with his parents and nieces and nephew. Then watched Star Trek and made Kylee feel super uncomfortable.


ooooh FRIDAY was the best. We went to GREG LASWELL!!!! It was amazing. This really lame local band opened, and I was embarrassed for them, but then this band called Harper Blynn, who is touring with Greg played... They are my new favorite. I've been listening to them non-stop since the show! They also played as Greg's band. It was really good. Amazing. Best show ever. It was up in Salt Lake at the Avalon.

fun fact: Greg Laswell is MARRIED to Ingrid Michaelson. How cool is that? That's a power couple right there. If only we could get them to tour together.. with Andrew Belle. AND Harper Blynn. That would be the best show ever.


We went with Shawn... who's a psycho and he thinks I hate him, but I promise I don't haha and his date Jessica. And Brittany and Joe were there. We went to Arby's, and then the show, and after we went to THE PIE for dessert. It was such a fun night!!! I love concerts. Especially in these small venues. It's so great. Thanks Dev, you're the best ;)


Those are the only days I really remember, but every single day, I see Devin and we do something really fun. Well, at least it seems more fun because I'm with him, even if we're just doing math homework, or babysitting. He is such good company!


I'm about out of blogging fuel. That's a lie, i'm actually on empty.

life goes on!

I find it so frustrating when you think you have found somebody really great and they end up being a completely different person behind your back. It's sad to think that for several years, I had looked up to and cared so much about a group of people who felt like my own family, only to find them turning their backs on me the second my life changes. Blaming all of their shortcomings on me, when I'm not even around anymore...


I wish people weren't two-faced, and I wish I could understand their intentions for treating me like this. It's sad to find out people aren't who you thought they were. Especially when they were people you really respected, and felt they respected you. 


However, these kinds of life lessons only make me more grateful for people in my life who ARE genuine. People who DO have integrity. People like my perfect family, amazing friends, and wonderful boyfriend.


So thank you to one of my very best friends, for the fair warning about my now-haunting past. And thank you to my awesome boyfriend for making it so much easier to deal with :)


I thought I had already taken my circle of friends through the refiners fire... I guess I missed a few. Sad to see them go, but only because they had a lot of potential to be really great life-long friends...


Oh well, I guess. I'm better without them, right? As hard as it is to believe... hmm. Life goes on, I guess!


The blog game for today is "My day... in great detail"


well... it's only 11:15 a.m... but I'll do my best, and maybe finish up the rest of the day tomorrow...


I woke up around 8:00 after hitting the snooze button 9 times, but it was acceptable because my morning class got cancelled and I had put aside this time in the morning to finish my math homework before I took my test.


I grabbed my backpack and went upstairs and scattered my math supplies across the kitchen table and got cracking. I moved through the problems pretty fast, which was good because I had to take a test at 10:00.


Everybody else had already gone to work and school, except for my Dad and he asked me if I wanted some breakfast... OF COURSE I DO.


He made me some hot chocolate, but put it in the wrong mug, which only ticked me off because he asked me which mug I wanted and I pointed to my mug 3 different times before he brought me orange hot chocolate in the mug my little sister made at Color Me Mine... hahah


Then he started the rest of breakfast while I cruised through 9.7 and 9.8. My Dad is the BEST COOK EVER... but only when we're camping. haha I'm serious! And this morning, he tried to experiment... he made us "bacon eggs"... I had no idea what that meant and was kind of scared of asking... Right as I took a bite he said "I cooked the eggs in the same pan as the bacon!"


And then I felt the slimy greasy egg slide down my throat... GROSS. I made a face at him and he said "well I dumped the grease out!" oh boy... Not enough, Dad, not enough. Needless to say, I didn't take another bite of those "bacon eggs". Dad tried to feed some to Milo but he just tossed it around on the floor and pounced on it for a couple of minutes until he lost interest.


So for breakfast, I ate like 5 pieces of bacon and some wheat toast with my orange hot chocoalte in the wrong mug. I finished my math homework, ran downstairs and changed and headed to math to take my test.


I still like to park at Grandma Cobbley's house for school. It's sort of hard, but it doesn't even feel like she's gone most of the time, and to be honest, it's a really awesome parking spot. So I walked to the LA building in the FREEZING cold and sat in the classroom until it was time for the test. Oh, and right as I got out of my car, "Sexy Can I" came on the radio... that song reminds me of Valeri Winn and Costa Rica. SO Hilarious. So that put me in a good mood.


It seems like everyone in my math class has become I giant group of friends, but I think they are all really weird, so I just keep quiet. Today though, one kid was really funny. Our Professor, Mr. Bartholomew always complains about how the teacher before him leaves markers on the whiteboard that are out of ink... "Why not throw them in the garbage?"


So almost every class period, he finds these markers, tests them on the whiteboard, and then throws them in the garbage can in the back of the room... missing every. single. time.


So today we walked in and there were about 6 markers on the whiteboard and Matt goes "should we do him a favor throw those markers away before they put him in a bad mood?" and Lad goes "oh look! somebody already DID him a favor!" and he pointed to the front of the classroom, where the garbage can had been moved... It was really funny. Because he always misses when he throws... ya know... it was funny, I promise.


So I turned in all my homework, very proudly that I had finished it, even the sections that I wasn't in class for! I just taught myself, and actually did really good! Then he handed us our tests and I started working on it, feeling like all of the problems were really easy! I finished the 13 questions in like 20 minutes and looked around... everyone was still working... I hate being first to finish, because it makes me feel like I did something wrong... so I double checked all my work and turned it in. Professor Bartholomew gave me a look that made me feel like he thought I was a cheater! I was ticked! I finish my tests fast every time, and he's gonna give me that look? NO WAY. NOT ONCE. NOT NEVER. NOPE. So I just smiled a left. A little ticked. 


Then Kylee texted me and said "Holy Cow Katie". (it said "in great detail", ok?)
But I couldn't text her back because my phone is retarded so I turned it off and turned it back on wile I was walking. And then I nice lady in a minivan stopped at the crosswalk for me and let me cross the street and I walked to my car, came home, immediately made more hot chocolate (to put in MY OWN mug this time) 

There it is. Except I only got the mug... not the whole set.

And turned on the TV only to find that Hellcats was NOT on last night, and the new episode is NEXT WEEK. Thank you, radio, for LYING to me! So I was a little bit upset and came here. To blog. About how exciting this day has been so far... haha


I have big plans though... HOMEWORK. lots of homework. And maybe even sleep some more.


Tonight Devin and I wanted to go up to Salt Lake to have dinner with his friends Banner and Harry, but they won't call him back so we are going to do homework at Amanda's and help Vicki watch the kids again :) I'm so excited. I love his nieces and nephew - they are so adorable!


I think that's it for the day.

all things are possible

“Love feels no burden, thinks nothing of its trouble, attempts what is above its strength, pleads no excuse for impossibility, for it thinks all things are lawful for itself and all things are possible.”

-Thomas A. Kempis

day twenty-four

something I crave often....


I don't really crave things, I don't think-- but I'm always in the mood for french fries. Or cotton candy. I definitely have a sweet tooth... I guess I crave salty things a lot, but that is because I'm anemic and don't have enough iron... or at least that's what I've been told!


so besides my lack of cravings.... life has been great :)


Devin met my family last night-- FINALLY. My mom hasn't really been up for visitors until now with her surgery and all, but she is recovering really well and this is her second week back at work, just going half days. My dad is getting surgery on one foot this Friday, and the other foot in 6 weeks, so that will be interesting. Kelli will be here this weekend! I'm so excited to see her - I miss her so much and I can't wait for her to meet Devin! She'll like him, I already know :)


Speaking of which, Dev is taking me to see Greg Laswell on Friday! I am so excited! And we get to go with Cory Mon... who is amazing... well I actually don't know him, but he is a great musician, and if he's Devin's friend, that means he's probably really awesome. Devin is the best. Don't listen to him if he tells you he's not... because he is. Everybody knows it anyway.


I have some more scenes to add to the list of Things Katie Sees that are Really Out of the Ordinary:


-A clown driving a car. Not a clown car, just a regular civic.
-A boy sitting at a table in the CS building eat a GIANT pot of beans. Like out of a pasta pot that you would use for spaghetti or something... it was weird. They might have even been dates. Or legumes... I'm actually not totally sure. It was just really gross and weird.
-An old man crosswalk guard in his orange vest riding around on a light purple beach cruiser.
-A girl checking out her muscles in the car behind me at a stop light. She looked exactly like a body builder guy checking out his muscles... it was so weird.


I wish I was sneaky enough to take pictures of these things for you, because they make my day so much more interesting! I guess it pays off to be observant!

Day twenty-three

A YouTube video...


Dev showed me this awhile ago... not only is this such a good song, but also... THIS IS AMAZING.


Inspired Bicycles...
Funeral-Band of Horses (song)

Feelin' Lucky

up until now

I had sworn to myself

that I'm content with loneliness

because none of it was ever worth the risk

but you are the only exception...

-paramore

I can't believe I have only just now found Devin. It surprises me because with so much in common and so many mutual friends, we should have run into each other before now. It must be part of the plan. I feel so lucky to be so adored by someone who I consider to be so far from anything I could ever have. It baffles me to understand that this man that I think is so wonderful thinks the same of me :)

I was talking to my Mom today about him, and she said that a guy so humble and kind is very rare... it is so true. This kind of luck doesn't happen to very many people -- and it doesn't happen very often. I am so fortunate to be able to have such a strong, grounded individual in my life that will sympathize with my frustrations, listen to my skewed opinions, tackle a difficult math problem with me and laugh at my lame jokes.

I am so blessed to be where I am in my life, as unexpected as it is. I couldn't have asked for a better turn-out from such a bad situation. Devin truly is a blessing in my life, and I am so grateful for all he has done for me each day, whether he knows the kind of difference he is making or not...

Every single person I have spoken with that knows Devin says the same thing. That he is either A) "THE MAN" B) "a Keeper" C) "the nicest guy I know" or D) "such an amazing guy-- you'd better hold onto him!" And all are so right! He is so indisputably GOOD. Everything about him. I could go on and on about this, about how genuine he is, and how great his character is. 

                                                  November 1, 2010: Andrew Belle at The Velour 

He told me tonight "yeah, I'm keeping you..." .... good, Dev, because I don't want to be anywhere else :) 

and I'm on my way to believing...

days twenty-one and twenty-two

A recipe/ the story behind my blog's name...


I can't really think of a good recipe I would like to share...


My mom makes the best BBQ sauce.
My dad smokes lots of yummy jerky
My sister is such an amazing cook -- she makes the best pasta


maybe if you want their recipes, you can ask me. I'm not really in the mood to blog right now, haha


And my blog is called "Wishful Thinking" because... I don't know why. I think it's just because I say that a lot. And I tend to do a lot of wishful thinking. And it's witty and clever. hahaha I don't know.


Devin is taking me to see Andrew Belle at the Velour tonight and I'm so excited :) I've never been to a show there -- and Andrew Belle is AMAZING and I can't wait to see him perform. I'm getting so anxious! Devin is the best :) He is so good to me!


Another thought.... some of the things I see on campus make my whole day. Some days, as I'm walking back to my car, I pass this girl making her way to the tunnel... on ONE rollerblade. Scooting along... holding a shoe. I just don't understand!


Today, there was a guy behind me, listening to his iPod and singing along... LOUDLY. And it wasn't good. And he sang the whole way... I don't think he realized he was singing out loud. It was so hard not to look back at him and laugh!


I'll have to start keeping note of the kinds of things I see on campus-- it's pretty entertaining. Like all the asian people in the math hall that walk REALLY SLOW. And how everyone in the LA buildling sits on the floor with their legs out and you have to step around them... in that tiny hallway! It's ridiculous. I could go on. I'll save the ranting and raving for another day.