changes

so many changes lately, it seems. 

once again, i've changed my blog. similar to something i had awhile ago. i like it, but i'm constantly looking for new ways to make it better. literally. so don't be surprised if i change it yet again! 

we are getting some seriously awesome fall weather lately. i was worried last week when it just up and snowed on us. afraid we were skipping fall all together, which would've been a shame, but the weather didn't let me down. and today has been a sunny, slightly-chilly thursday. and i love it. hopefully when i get the munchkins up from a nap, i'll be able to talk them into taking a walk around the neighborhood.

devin and i seem to be making constant changes to our house. always getting new things, moving things around, re-decorating, re-organizing. i'm pretty sure in the 5 months we've lived here, we've re-organized the kitchen about 7 times. we are always changing around what things go in which cupboards, because there's not nearly enough storage in the kitchen, even for just the 2 of us! it's working out though.

when i was younger, i used to fear change. especially in high school. change was never good then. i think that it's probably because i was in a stage in high school (and college) where every decision would have a pretty serious effect on me. like toward the end of my freshman year, my family had sold our house and were planning to move to heber. i had been attending cheer try-outs at wasatch high, and after maybe 3 nights, called it quits. i didn't like those girls. i didn't want to be at that school. lucky for me, my dad changed his mind at the last minute and apologized to the buyer and said we were keeping the house. fwew! that would've been a scary change. 

another major change? moving to st. george for a year. that was huge! just the other day, i was talking with my mom. my younger sister just had "college days" at school, and had firmly decided on attending dixie for 1 semester, just for the heck of it. when i heard this, i thought no way was my little sister moving to the other end of the state. she's way too young! and then i remembered... i did the exact same thing. and practically for the same reasons. sure, i was going into a program pretty seriously, but living in st. george seemed like a dream. and being on my own was exciting. but kayla? no way! too young. cant. right? wrong. she's actually older than i was at that time! so i asked my mom "how in the world did you let me do that? why did you let me move so far away?! and just trust me?!" i still don't know how she did that! it's crazy to see family and friends grow up and watch them go through things i had been through, and think "well, they're too young for that" when they really aren't.

anyway, moving down to dixie was a huge change. in the beginning, i was so happy about this change. it was a huge reality check for me, to really be completely relying on myself. i had to budget my own income, stay updated on my car's maintenance, buy my own groceries, get a job that supported me, and i was responsible for making myself attend all my classes, and get good grades. i'm impressed that i stayed so on top of it, and i feel like it made a big change in my maturity level. we all know that plan went south, but it was still a very needed learning experience for me, in a lot of ways. 

now? i accept change. and i'm starting to think that maybe it's because every time something changes, i know i'm not alone. i don't have to face my changes by myself anymore. devin and i are a team, and we do it all together. if it changes for him, it changes for me too, and visa-versa. it's so much easier to handle change, to welcome and accept it, when you have someone so great doing it with you!

so change is good. change is awesome! i feel more ready than ever to face change, head on. i feel like i've gained a new perspective. i can turn any kind of change into something positive, that will benefit me. something i can learn from, something i can gain, something i can achieve, or something i can improve on. i have a feeling like there will be some changes. dont know where or when, but i'm ready!