I knew

On November 3, 2010 I wrote in my journal, after several months of forgetting to write. I wrote about the break up I had, and how I was surprised to be living life to the fullest, rather then depressed, and lonely.

"I had anticipated several months of sleepless nights and endless tears. I expected to curl up and die. I expected life to stop in its track and end then and there, right along with the only thin I ever knew for 3 years. It happened some time in September. Do you know what I didn't expect? I didn't expect to thrive in the situation - to be happy and independent. I didn't expect expect to be so full of life and energy and willingness to try new things. I didn't expect this new level of self esteem and courage. And I definitely didn't expect what came next. Exactly what I didn't know I needed. I didn't expect him to change my life and sweep me off my feet - but I am so grateful. The Lord is to thank, in His mysterious ways.

Needless to say...

I met someone.

It's been 13 days.

I'm falling in love again.

And is name is Devin Michael Ashby.

and I'm going to marry him..."

It was like I already knew it, but it still took a little longer to truly convince myself that Devin was for real. That his sincerity was genuine. That he really was treating me like a gentleman should. Devin was real. I still can't believe it. I came from a place just south of rock bottom, and have been at my happiest ever since I met the man. 

On a lighter note, here he is: being amazing. and being a kid. I sure love him!