reminiscing

without going into much detail, it's been a pretty stressful few weeks. to say the least! there are so many big changes in the future - most of which could happen any second. i've been pretty high strung, and i've let the stress get the best of me most of the time. devin has been sick for almost a full week now, and we're both recuperating from our backpacking trip with lots of sore muscles, countless bug bites, lack of sleep and itchy sunburns. but my husband - regardless of all of this, hasn't failed once to make sure i'm happy. he has truly been a lifesaver lately. he is easily the only person who can calm me down so fast, and help me refocus on the things that matter most. i lose sight of the big picture a lot of the time, and tend to focus on small problems, and he's always fixing everything. fixing me, fixing the small problems... it's incredible to watch him work so tirelessly in every area of his life. he is so successful. he is getting a lot of responsibility and opportunity at work, and it has been amazing to see how quickly he has gained the respect of his coworkers. he is always improving. he is always working harder to be better, and he is always helping others do the same for themselves. he never hesitates to do something for someone else, and it is so humbling for me. i often find myself wondering why i was the girl that deserves to be his wife. it is such a privilege. and let me tell you, a huge self esteem boost to realize that that handsome man picked me. i can hardly believe it! i found myself today looking through our wedding photos. it's been awhile. i love those photos. jared is such an incredible photographer, and an amazing friend to have done all that work for us. what a lot of people don't know is that because jared photographed our wedding and bridals mostly as a favor, he didn't edit the pictures, or even sort through them. he gave us every last one. we picked our favorites to provide a "wedding album" but there are several that nobody has ever seen - most of them only slightly different from ones we have already shown, but different enough matter to me. devin has edited some of the photos as we've made prints to hang in the house, but i love that our wedding photos are unedited. part of me was a little jealous that i didn't have the wedding photos with the cool effects, and professional editing... but how many brides have over 2,000 photos of their wedding day and bridal session? and devin can edit any of them whenever i ask nicely :) haha

those 2,000 photos are in a home on our external hard drive, where they rarely get looked at. i'm pretty sure the last time i looked at all of these was shortly after we got them, so it's like getting your wedding photos all over again! here are a few of those photos that i especially love. but first - a huge thank you to my amazing husband who has literally kept me sane this past month or two. sometimes he seems too good to be true! i love you, devin!

this man has my whole heart.